In the New company about a week, everything seem so new to me…new boss,new colleague, new office,new job responsibility… Not purposely wanted to change job, but jus knowing that GOD want me to move out from the comfort zone.

      Actually, did have a moment of confuse and worry,  but i believe that God is there for me, by Faith we trust, by Faith we walk,so just pray hard, praying that God will guide me through all the difficulties. Amen!

今天在网上看见一篇名为<如果幸福是被咬伤的苹果>的短篇，心中有种莫名的感动。感动，不是因为那短篇，而是这名称。

      为何说幸福就像被咬伤的苹果呢？难道幸福真的那么短暂吗？被咬伤的苹果，如果曝光在一般的室温，就会很快的发黄，不能吃了。拿被咬伤的苹果做幸福的比例，让我有种莫名的悲伤。有人问我，什么是幸福的定义，我想了好久，总觉得这个问题很难回答。有人的幸福是寻找到自己的真爱，有人的幸福是身边有很多知心朋友，也有人觉得能有稳定的工作、稳定的收入就是幸福了。

        我承认幸福是很短暂的事实，每一个人心中所谓的幸福也会因人而异，但我相信因为大家都经历过伤痛，所以才会知道自己的幸福建立于哪一些事情。对我来说，我总觉得最幸福的事情就是你可以在你的一生中找到您的知己。

         你的知己，也许不常在你身边，但他总是很容易知道你的心里在想什么。他也许能把你说不出口的焦虑轻易的化解，尤其是当你不知要如何说出口时。他也许会在心情不好时对着你破口大骂，因为他知道你是唯一一个可以让他发泄的对象。他也许也会在你睡着的时候把你挖起来要你陪他吃宵夜。。。太多太多的也许总会出现在彼此的身上，你的身边，是否拥有这样的一位知己呢？拥有时，就多多珍惜啊，因为拥有了解自己的知己是最幸福的小事，就算彼此一起的时间不长，但也值得回味一生了。

2007年的情人节刚过，还是老样子，还未找到适合自己的另一半。没有情人的情人节，有人认为，那是很悲哀的事。没有情人的情人节，真的那么悲哀吗？

最近的写作灵感都跑得无影无踪了，常有点发呆的感觉。并不是说自己没有了写作的灵感，只是我的专注变得脆弱了。以前，我可以很容易的把自己经历过的事情，几天前的灵感，或对某些事情的感动轻易的写下来，但，现在的我在也不能这样随心所欲了。是自己太忙了吗？还是自己的专注力已不大如前了？

      一直以来，自己都很喜欢写一些短篇，这个习惯从14/15岁时就开始了。那时，我的短篇只有一个读者，因为我们只会和对方交换自己所写下的短篇，分享着只有我们之间的秘密。当然，几年后，我的读者换了另一个人；再多几年，我就少写短篇了，因为没有人和我一起分享。几年前，无意中加入friendster，发掘了部落格的存在，我又开始了自己的部落格天地，在自己小小的世界写着一篇又一篇的心情故事。从来，我都不知道会不会有人进来看我的部落格，我只是很随心的把自己的感觉写下，一篇又一篇，每个季节的故事，就像心情日记般一一记载在这里。直到，那天，有位朋友告诉我，她说她很喜欢看我的部落格，她很期待我每一次的短篇。那一刻，我蛮感动的，因为我从来不知道原来一直以来我的朋友都在陪伴着我，当自己迷茫时，快乐时，大家都在分享着同样的感觉。痛时，朋友看见也会理解我的伤心；开心时，他们也分享着我的喜悦。

      问我为什么喜欢写部落格，我自己也不大清楚。很多时候，部落格就像一个让自己思考的空间吧！涂涂写写的同时，我常会让自己的脑袋专注的想某一件事或思考某一个问题。伤心时，在写部落格的同时我会让眼泪潇洒的流，因为我知道哭过以后，自己一定会好过一点。我不知道会不会有人像我这样，写部落格写到哭，但我从来不觉得那是一件丢脸的事，因为没人可以了解自己的痛苦时，部落格就像一个可以让自己大声哭的被窝，用厚厚的棉被把自己盖好，任意的哭，与世隔绝。

      就拿我自己来说，我个人就有3个部落格，会多吗？我不认为。一个是我的伤心部落格，一个是我的心情日记，一个是我的浦鱼式思考逻辑篇，问我会多吗？我不觉得。写作与部落格，两个看似没联系的词，却有着密不可分的关系。但，对我来说，我却清楚的了解，自己不是什么写作爱好者，我只是一个部落格拥护者吧！突然想说，我其实话太多了。。paiseh paiseh。。^_^

I dun know about others, but i’ve a very funny reaction when i’m stress up. Most of the time when i stress up, i will dream of SNAKE….

    I discover this 2 years ago, it’s where i still working with my previous coy, and everyday work like mad… On and off, i will dream of snake. These dreams are not repeated, everytime i will dream of different types of snake, and every time the stories goes different.

    Last nite, i dream of snake again, this time, there are so many of them and the worst is, i’m lock in the cage. All the snake is rounding up my body, and even in the dream, i can feel the pain when they bite me… i wake up in the middle of the nite and sweating…Be frank, i scare of snake, i just don’t understand y i will kept on dreaming of this animal which i affraid the most..SNAKE!!!!

Out of no way, feel like want to write something about my mom, someone that make me feel funny. With her, i have lots of stories to tell, coz she is just as cute as she can.

My mom, someone really like sing ‘k’. In my house, if you see all her trophy, you will be very surprise…(but, she manage to throw half of it when we move to new house, and those we threw, it’s about 30pcs….sweat!!!) And be frank, she like to listen songs. Most of my frens consider my mom as someone very "updated". Know y? It’s because everytime i open my pc, she is sitting in front of my pc listen all the songs play through my pc. Soon or later, she can tell me whice song is nice, who’s voice very nice and so on. And now, when she heard the new song from radio (FM), she can request me to download those new songs that she felt very nice…i’m stone there……

Well, beside this, she also consider very ‘geng’. She dun really know how to used the electrical items in the house, yet she can open my pc and play games. Recently she start to carry a hand phone, but end up she come back to me telling me that she don’t know how to open message… =.= …

She always create jokes, although i knew that she is not purposely make it, but i just can’t stand and laugh on it. Exp: Behind my new house there is a big ‘longgang’ where most of the time you can see it’s fill with water and mosquitos. So last nite, when we having dinner together, we are discussing about this problem. Out of no way, my mom gave me a very funny suggestion:" Ya, we can pour some oil on it, then those mosquito can’t give birth in the water loh!" When i heard that, my reaction is: wah hahahaha….. U might say i’m siao or wat, but i really dun know from where my mom will have this kind of though. After i laugh, only i explain to her why cannot pour oil in the longgang… haih… this is my cute mom!

For those who saw my mom b4, the 1st sentence they will tell me is: you n your mom look alike la… this sentence i heard it when i was young until today. Maybe my gen really like her, we have the same taste on food that we like to eat, some time we will have same kind of thinking, we even can ‘kutuk’ my father together (when he is not around) hehehe…

Well, this is part of my mom’s stories, will continue next time….hahaha….

Recently, i’m falling in love with Gashapon Figures. Love it, because it’s so cute, yet the artwork is so nice. I’ve collect some serials, like Dragon Ball, Gandam, Rama 1/2, Sushi set… Let me show your…

And my NEXT targets are these:

But no matter how, got to wait 1st, very PK oledi, haih!!! i just dun know y, just love it, and this is what my fren said: your hobby really expensive!!! hahaha…

24 December 2006, it’s over, yet this is the day that make some people no longer be the same in their life…

On this day, 1st i would like to thank GOD that He make this day so special to us, it is the birthday of Jesus, the savior in the earth. On this day, one of my best fren Baptize; some of the believers turn their hearts back to GOD; one of my muimui accepted Christ(of coz there are few more people accepeted Christ on this day), Praise God about that. I want to thank God that He has used me to be part of the skit, to bring a message to the people around.

When talk about the skit, i have many people to thanks to— like my beloved Director, Chen Chen. We went through a hard time to came out with this skit. From brainstoming about the story line of the skit to get the actors and actress, and until practicing for the skit, we face a lot of problems to the extent where the skit might need to change becoz the commitee dun like the ending. We pray hard, work hands in hands to makesure everything can run smoothly. We encourage one another, and putting put hope and faith to God, and i kept on telling myself that –God will never fail us if we are doing it for HIM!!! So, when the skit being presented, i felt like crying, its the tears of JOY, because finally we did it, WE DID IT FOR GOD!

Of cause i also appreciated the effort everybody put in. People like Stephen, Kebbie, Keng Lee, Joel, Aaron, Kaiven, Shirley, Arden and most important my partner JOYCELYN. This is the time i really get to know her better, putting our heart together to work for GOD. And i would like to say THANK YOU to everybody who support us, although your might not involve in it, but thanks for those who pray for us, thanks for your attendance in the evening service, thanks for the complements that your tell me after the service!

Last, i would to thanks my best pal– Anita. She is the one who support me all the way no matter i’m sad or happy. Although she can’t join me for most of the activities, but she really gave a full support to me…. thanks ya!! Muaks!!!

It’s been so long i didn’t come here and write down my daily stories, by all means, i miss here so much!

     These few weeks, i’m very bz, bz with my church activities, bz with workload, bz with Christmas shopping, and sometime i’m in the situation where i dun know wat i bz at….

Bz with church activities, bcoz Christmas is coming, have Caroling practice, skit practice, then have my GB commitment, preparing the gifts for all my frens & collegues…and just becoz of wrapping all the gifts, i have Panda Eyes liao…then bz with workload, becoz my beloved Designer went for Honey Moon, so i have to take over his work, learning how to used illustrator to do changes and art work, everyday sitting in front of his PC panic how to used d software, cracking my head and end up have to work OT until 8pm++…

I’m in the mood of discourage and depress, dun know y.. maybe most of the time all my planning doesn’t work out in the end, or maybe i’m tired. How to say, exp: i planned to visit my girls in Putrajaya during the Fonomarea, but end up im not able to went there coz some inccident happened on that day. Then, i have date all my girls to watch a movie on Sat, but end up i have to cancel it bcoz last minutes all of us got to go back to church to prepare things for next day event. I’m kinda upset, coz i fail to keep my promises to them.

      Things happened around, make me blank off my mind. Some time feel like shutting down my mind, doing nothing but sit there jus relax and maybe take a nap or wat. I just dun want to think anymore, mind is tired, feel like crying yet have no tears coming out, it makes me feel very bad. Christmas is just around the corner, and i dun feel any happiness around, i’m death off!

      Few weeks ago, actually God is given me title for this year’s chritmas presents— HAPPINESS… Few weeks ago, i can easily tell what is that, but today, i’m blank off, i have nothing to tell you about this word. I know it sound silly, but this is how i feel now…. tired, depress, discourage, upset, confuse, worried and tears…